If I pass the drug test and background check (and I can’t imagine why I would not pass either one) I have a new J-O-B. Just Over Broke that is. However, I just have to face the truth. Ten years now of attempting to make a living sharing my talents on the Internet has never come close to making a living. At most I made $300 some months, but on average working my ass off I earned about $100 or less per month. With the hubby now making half his former income, even with our expenses as low as they are now, we just cannot go on like this.
I don’t think it is that my work sucks so badly so much as I am awful at networking. I really just don’t like people, and I just don’t play well with others. I don’t know the rules for interpersonal games and I have to admit, I don’t want to. It is on me – no one and nothing else.
The fact that I also have standards about not cheating, not lying, not browbeating or tricking people into making purchases they might not ought to also hurts me. But I’m not giving those up either.
Perhaps the world just needs me more as a maid and a cart pusher, than as an artist, writer and webdesigner.
Here is the tentative plans.
The adult empire will be allowed to slowly expire itself away, as well the majority of what is left of my mainstream work.
Since I can do Squidoo lenses in spare moments during commercials and they are reaching a point of earning me $2 or so a month with no expenses and no need for intensive upkeep such as a blog, I will likely keep those up and add one now and then.
I will continue to draw coloring pages and keep Color-Your-Own.com going. It is back up to about $20 a month in income so it does at least cover it’s own hosting, and I also feel that given some of the wonderful emails I have received from users, it creates some positive good in the world. I enjoy doing the art, too.
Yesterday I was going through my endless WorkInProgress writing folder. I have some works I’ve forgotten all about, and others I am still fond of and hope to finish someday. I am going to continue to write, and to seek an agent to help sell my novels for print publication. No more of these crappy nobody publishers. Either I am good enough for the big time or I’m going to quit wasting my time.
Since nobody reads this blog anyway, I’ll probably quit posting here. MySpace will be relegated to just what it should be – a place to list new Squidoo lenses and coloring pages I want Google to pick up on. My friends can follow me at my LiveJournal – which I just might start keeping up a bit better. If you don’t have that link, you can email and ask and I might share it (it is a personal diary, not a public blog), or you can follow me at Twitter or Tagfoot (I am foovay on both). I kind of enjoy both of those so I’ll probably continue with them. I won’t be online ten hours a day any more, but the time I am online will be far more for my own edification and pleasure, so who knows, I might even start playing some games and so forth again. Keep in mind though – that I will be working full time, possibly more, and I’ll still have my ranch duties. In addition, someday the weather will get nice enough for kayaking, hiking, camping, bird watching and otherwise having an outdoor life. And I’ll be able to afford it. Gosh, I might even buy a couple of cute outfits and go out now and then. Shocking – eh?
And I just might put some Bella Sara cards up for sale on eBay, if I can’t find any way to trade them otherwise.
Blessedbe
Summer
